July 30, 2011, 2:04 am
Filed under: recovery

Tonight I calmly sit at the key board. Knowing I am free of who I once was; an addict filled with anger and hatred for those who hurt me. There’s still an aching sometimes. Just realizing that I’m allowed to feel the highs as well as the lows. Learning to be real with myself and the ones I love seems  to be the hardest part. The words I write here are my true feelings.

Here is the challenge for the day, the hour, the moment…….to be free to feel whenever I am up or down. To dream as big as the lord would want me to and to accept failure as well as sucess. I am a blessed child of God who is thankful for all I have been given.


A new day
July 29, 2011, 9:56 pm
Filed under: recovery

today is new day filled with new stuggles. I am trying to see the sunny side of everything. The fact that I  have breath in lungs and a wonderful family thats supports me is what brings me through these hard days.

This state of mind is what I must focus on as I progress closer to me dream of completing my recovery.  I would like to give this positive state of mind to all addict and remind them all they are not alone in their struggles.

Learning to crawl
July 28, 2011, 5:32 pm
Filed under: recovery

Putting together my firsy book is all about taking baby steps. Learning the who’s, What’s, where’s and whys. I am so greatful to my freinds who have laid the path before me. They have place the turn sign and black ice warnings. I know it’s a long road but, to say I completed a dream is the prize at the end.

I  began to crawl yesteday when I asked a number individuals to put their life story in written word. I also called a great resouce in reguards to information that would of taken me years to accumilate.

I have high hopes that God willing we can complete  this book and help addicts everywhere know they are not alone.

out of the darkness
July 28, 2011, 4:24 am
Filed under: recovery

Today I have begun a journey. I want to touch recovering addicts in the world and let them know that they are not alone. I have been sober for about five years and feel stronger than I could have ever imagined.

I am looking to help fellow recovering addicts by putting testimonies of people who made it out of the darknessand to the path of freedom. I don’t want to give the view that recovery is easy. As a matter of fact. I have gone through hell trying to find freedom from drugs and anger.

Making amend is freeing. Not everyone excepted me back into there lives but, perhaps that’s Gods will telling me who will be there on my path to freedom.