seeing the world through fresh eyes
August 30, 2011, 5:58 pm
Filed under: recovery, Uncategorized

After traveling the west coast for two weeks I have retured with fresh eyes. The things that were grey are now are filled with vibrant color.

In the last few weeks Ihave experienced the wonderous history of the gold rush. Felt the pain of gold panning in the unforgiving sun.  I have Rode in a stage coach on a cabol stone  road.  I discovered the beauty of San Fransico under heavy fog. My family and I floaded down the Colorado river surrounded by  glorous  beauty.

Seeing the historical wonders of the west was a blessing. I showed me that God has created so mush beauty for all to exoiernce if we simply take the time  to step out.


Leaves and clouds
August 11, 2011, 2:06 am
Filed under: recovery

As a child I would lie in the yard and stare the clouds that floated by wondering where they went. Now as an adult it seems that time is racing by and I don’t have that time to ask the simple questions. I am always  running from A to b, hoping I’m not late.

I need  to slow it down and find the time  to smell the roses. maybe somewhere in slow motion I’ll find that child I once was. There is wonder in everyday but, I seem to have forgotten how to dance with leaves and question the clouds.

Living with an addict while in recovery
August 10, 2011, 2:17 am
Filed under: recovery

Today I feel the heaviness of living wit han addict. everyday filled with doubt and fear. Knowing i could fall ust as far but having to love him froma distance while standing right beside him.

It’ s like being alone in a crowd. I’m shut off from the world I once lived in and have no desire to hit rock bottom again.

So greatful for the blessings that have been bestowed on me in this journey of recovery.

At times, my old demons tap on my shoulder and remind me of what and who I was. I will be strong in the shadow of the addict in th house I live.

The fight for freedom
August 3, 2011, 4:06 pm
Filed under: recovery

Everyday I rise to new struggles that I had never encountered before I was free from addiction. I am learning to stand on my own two feet. I will always need God to hold my hand and show me  the next step. I am becoming stronger one minute at a time, not one day at a time.

Thank God for the wonders of my life that he gave me the chance to see after my downfall.